There She Goes

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As I listen to Be Mine by Infinite, I start to think to myself how my life was so different a few months back. Nothing major happened, well in all honesty, to me it was major. A few months back, there were a few things happening that I never saw coming. One: I had a falling out with one of my good friends, and Two: I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life, my future. This friend meant a lot to me but in the most random of days and time, the friendship ended. It was quite sad, but I feel that if it wasn’t for that falling out, that I wouldn’t have learned from it and I wouldn’t be the person that I am today. At around the same time, I started to think about what it was that I wanted. In all honesty, there was only one goal in mind. Two words: Los Angeles.

It took me a while to fully know that what I wanted to do with my life was to be in the film industry. Trust me, it took me a while to know that. I first started off in college with a Business major, then I changed it to Computer Engineering, and finally Film. When did I decide that film was the thing for me? It was about a year ago. Now that I think about that, I beat myself because things would have been better, I think, if I knew that this was what I wanted. There were always signs, all around me, hints, but as the clueless person that I was, I never got them.

Now, back to a few months back. Everything happened in February. Exact date? Not sure, but what I do know is that a lot changed for me. Before February had arrived, one goal, the one dream that I had was to work in the film industry in Los Angeles. I was obsessed with all that was happening in LA. I loved it. The movies, the actresses, actors, the gossip, everything. It was what I wanted….so I thought. After the falling out happened, one new thing happened to me, and I am now forever grateful. I was introduced to the world of South Korea and Japan. 

South Korea and Japan:

Before it all, I knew nothing about it. Nothing about their music, films, stars, nothing! It was all new to me and when I think back to those months, I get a smile on my face. My first introduction was a Korean drama. I will always remember, it was Boys Over Flowers. My sister or should I say dongsaeng, showed it to me. As the stubborn person that I am, I did not want to see it, but as the persuasion went on from her, I gave it a chance. It was AMAZING!! That drama forever changed my life. After that drama, I continued on with others, and till this day, I continue to watch them. Now I’m crazy for it all. The music is just the best. I’m OBSESSED and it’s been a while since I was able to say that about something. Now, when I think of it all, it makes me happy and warm inside because thanks to all of this, I finally know 100% what I want. I actually have dreams now and that gives me a feeling of nerves and happiness at the same time.

FRIENDS:

This was all so crazy for my friends. They knew that I was random, but not this random. It was so insane for them because they didn’t even know where it all came from, like how I got a hold of it. lol… I told them and they thought I was weird, I mean it was different for us all, so I understood where they were coming from. Since this was something that I wanted to conquer, I needed to include it in my daily life, so I started to speak to them in Korean, well the little that I knew. I also started to show them the music and dramas. Now they are so used to it that when I speak it they just mock me, lol… I even got one of my friends obsessed with it as well haha.. This isn’t too new for them anymore, and they accept it.

NOW:

I am studying Japanese and Korean. It’s difficult but the difficulty of it makes me want to try harder and make sure I conquer the languages. As for my dreams and goals, they are to live and work in South Korea and Japan. When I think about it, it gives me a feeling of scared but excited to bring on something new for myself. My friends and family see now that I am happy. Because of all of this, it has brought me a lot of opportunities of meeting new people and trying new things. It makes me happy. :) I now love that I have something that I’m going to work hard for. Los Angeles? I still want it but not as much as before because I know that something different is out there and that is what I want, something different. Different is my middle name.